There have been many difficult times in my life. It’s quite ridiculous actually. Things seem to get worse, and not better.They say everything ends but this nonsense has no end in sight. So, to choose a difficult time in my life is…
Gotta keep the faith, though, right?
Gotta believe that good things will come to me if I keep sending out positive vibes to the universe.
Unfortunately, when you suffer from depression, positivity is the last thing on your mind. Others who don’t know what it’s like to be depressed, don’t actually understand how difficult it is to do anything. Much less live and be productive.
A Difficult Time in My Life
This happened when I started suffering severe leg pains. It came almost suddenly, but it as really building up. I used to walk a lot to work and I guess, it caught up to me.
I started finding I was very weak and couldn’t do much. An hour of standing and I was done. As if I’d been doing it for three or more hours in the scorching sun.
I tried to Google but kept coming up with crazy diagnoses like cancer and other things.
I suffered in silence for a while, well over a year, until I went to the doctor and got blood tests done.
I remember the doctor telling me what was up and hitting me with all these acronyms and illnesses plaguing my body.
I got in the car and I was alright. Just like, “Eh. I’m alive so it’s OK.”
However, two days later the full impact of my diagnosis hit me.
And I cried. Because I was sickly. Because I thought I can’t have kids in case I bleed too much. Because don’t nobody want a chronically sick mate. Because, because, because.
Now, I’ve learnt to manage my severe anemia. I try not to do too much. I try to eat as many small meals throughout the day as I can and stock up on cranberry, beetroot and carrots. I’m getting there. My lifestyle has had to change, dramatically, might I add, but I didn;t really like going out so not such a big loss.
But my diet changing is still a struggle because I’m not financially able yet to afford the fruits and veggies my body needs.
However, one step at a time, and we’ll get there.
What’s YOUR difficult time in life? COmment below!